Saturday, May 27, 2006

A year later...

It's been a while since Banshee posted here. Perhaps I'll reflect on thoughts here while she's away.

A lot of worries have crept up into my life these past few weeks. Doubt and worry are sneaky little monsters. I worry about my current job and I also have a lot of worries about my parents' job. So much seems outside of my control.

What if I'm not doing what I'm meant to be doing.
What if I just can't get where I need to get going, wherever that may be.
Worse yet, what if I don't figure out where that is until, for some reason, it's too late.
What if.....

Last Sunday, the sermon was about "Ebenezer", which means "Stone of Help".
In 1st Samuel, the Israelites at one point were having a tough time against the Philistines. Finally, as Samuel called on God for help, the Israelites beat the Philistines, and in commemoration, he marked the place with an "Ebenezer", a stone of help, saying, "Thus far has the Lord helped us."

Sometimes, when the future seems real unclear because I see it only through the dark lens of doubt and worry, I should look to the past. I can see how God has helped me and those around me. The truth is that Faith is hard work, but worry is only a scarecrow.

"Thus far, God has helped us."